Well first off This will have cussing so if you don't like it then oh well...I know I promised not to but at this point I have to...now...

Why the fuck is it that every damn time I find happenes I can't keep it!!! I mean she loves me then she doesn't...I would give anything for her! I turned down some people for her but she didn't care...she found out and told me I shouldn't of done it even tho she said she loved me even tho she prolly never ment that one time in her fucking life when she said it to me...

Am I not good enough for her? I am Always here for her to cry on...I am here when she breaks up with her BF's that she broke up with like 3 times! I am here when ever the hell she needs me...I droped a project to help her and look where that got me...bad grades woopie fucking doo! I love her so much but no matter what the hell happenes I will never be able to be with her! WHAT THE HELL IS FUCKING WRONG WITH ME!! why am I not enough...why can't I be with her even for a few min...and the worst thing is she doesn't even know about this because I hide my feelings way to fucking much and I hate it but I have to...I rather suffer then let others be sad. I just want to know what I did wrong! It pisses me off sooo much how no matter how much I help...how nice I am..how much I care...how many times I am here when others aren't...that she will never feel the same for me...this has been happeneing for way to long and I hate it but I would rather suffer then lose her...

I know the feeling of pain, heart break, waistless love, and more to fucking well...it is the worst feeling you can have...Love is a fucking bitch that only likes to see you attempt and pulls the damn thing away...it loves to see you bleed, cry, yell, and worry. It gets it off like a fucking old pediphile man at a little leage game!


Why the fuck should I care...no one else does...